Why? Because I sit with my boob in baby's face while my two year old causes havoc, or starts kicking and hitting me and baby because I'm not giving him any attention.
Isaac resents it too, clearly. For example:
Isaac: (seeing Mummy about to feed Eli) No don't feed Eli Mummy, Eli's not hungry...
Or
Isaac: Mummy put Eli in his cot now... pleeease.
They are so clever aren't they.
I worked out that I spend on average a total of 5 hours a day feeding Eli (day and night combined). And if you add to that winding, changing, cuddling.. etc it probably adds on another hour or 2.
No wonder he resents it, and I am starting to now.
The other day, for example, I needed to feed Eli but also pick up Isaac from pre-school, a five minute walk up the road. I actually contemplated putting on my sling which enables me to feed and then I'd be able to feed and walk there at the same time. But I just didn't think that would go down too well with the folk round here.
Anyway, it was an irrelevant conundrum because Eli, bless, is now 18 pounds, i.e. the size of a 6 month + old and so won't fit in the sling that I could have used to feed him in!
So that is why I resent it. I think more importantly, I resent not having more help... then I wouldn't be resenting it so much!
As for breastfeeding per se, now I just tell myself that I would still have to sit with him to feed him from a bottle, and washing and sterilising bottles would only take more time.
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